I'm pretty sure no one checks this page anymore.

I've been reading my archives. Sya's read my archives recently too. She felt i was happier then. Fuck, have you ever gotten the feeling where you just feel that the things you do and say don't mean anything to anyone anymore? I just want things to be as they were like, whenever in the past. EXCEPT SEC 2 LOL i was a mess back then.

Apart from the constant feelings of 'why-the-fuck-do-i-talk-so-much-when-nothing-i-say-matters', life's been pretty good. Lost quite a bit of weight. I'm like, 69kg now. I was 76kg the last time i blogged. I've gotten to know myself much more in the time i've been gone. Honestly, i'm just a bit disappointed that i've turned out to be a really boring person. Sure, i talk alot. Sure, some people find the things i say to be amusing, but that's it y'know. When i'm dead, i'm just gonna be known as the 'vaguely amusing gay boy'. Yeah, i'm openly gay now. Am i gonna tell my parents? Sure. But not now. Not just yet. I'll probably be kicked out and disowned (LOL). But hey, i've already made plans to live with Sya. So i'm pretty sure everything's gonna be ok in the end.

I've made new friends. I've lost some. Ok, not 'lost' per se, but i haven't spoken to a bajillion people in a long time. School's ok. Nothing much. I'm glad i find it a bit easier to speak to my classmates now.

All in all, i've changed alot. Not entirely for the better. I'm just glad i still believe that there's some good in everyone (NOT HISYAM, HE'S THE ANTI-CHRIST. Ok i kid) and that everything's going to be fine in the end.